With the turn of the season, I've been entering unexplored areas of my life.
In knowing that you'll soon have a little human being to influence, you start to pay close attention to how you live your life and the intentions behind everything you do.
I've always been a rather self-reflecting person, and along with my dreamy side also comes an honest perception of self. I'm not a fan of self-delusion, and as much as I like to view the world through rose coloured glasses, I've learned that you cannot experience a dynamic range of living if you close your eyes to the parts that scare you.
I feel like the correlation between the change of season and what I'm now experiencing in my personal life is uncanny. It's a mirror, the outer world to my inner one showing me in plain view; the meaning of it all.
It's inevitable, and often avoided by most.
I can remember the oh-so-accusing words coming from the odd friend at pivotal times in my life, echoing "You've changed".
I used to feel so much guilt behind those words, as though I had committed some sort of cardinal sin.
Looking back now though, I was simply just more open to change than the people around me were at the time.
Through changing your actions, words, mind, etc. you undergo an abundance of learning. You learn what fits you and what doesn't. You learn who you are and who you definitely are not.
I've witnessed too many people stay in the safety of their comfort zones, only to end up unhappy and unfulfilled because they simply let fear control their fortune.
Change is such a crucial part of life, and if I could go back in time to console my worried little friends who rolled the word "change" around in their mouths like a dirty sock, I would.
It's not to say that change isn't at times terrifying, disappointing, or devastating even, because it can most definitely be all of those things. But it's the end result of change that creates experience, that in turn builds character.
I welcome this change more than any other I've ever experienced in my life, not because I think it will be easy, heck no.
I welcome it most because I know it will change me for the better, in ways that nothing else can.
I'm enjoying my 5th month of pregnancy a lot. My energy is back, and aside from tiring out quicker than my non-pregnant self would, I'm feeling wonderful.
I've even started a mini stock-pile of items from my work (a natural health food & supplement store) because I'm paranoid I wont be able to find anywhere back in Kingston to buy all this stuff!
On a random note, I've been struck with more motivation than usual to put effort into my physical appearance. I'm loving the new curves of my body and surprisingly feel kinda sexy! However I'm gonna chalk that up to the 2nd trimester honeymoon phase and the crazy wild pregnancy hormones. I have doubts that these feelings will stay once I near the end of my 3rd trimester, when I'm waddling around like a penguin because I can't see that feeling very sexy...
For anyone interested in the products I've been using... my pre-natal vitamins consist of: New Chapter Perfect Prenatal and Megafoods Baby & Me. I'm also taking New Chapter's Wholemega prenatal.
As far as caring for my skin and preventing stretch marks, I've been using Alaffia's fair trade Shea Butter and Weleda's Stretch Mark Oil. I'll give reviews on everything I've used throughout my pregnancy once I feel I can accurately judge their capabilities, but so far so good on the stretch marks! Not a single one yet!
Scott's been working, but we make the most of his weeks off.
Seeing him adjust to the idea of being "Daddy" has been the biggest turn-on for me. Nothing has been more attractive than his cute little jokes and ideas, and simply knowing how amazing of a father he's going to be just makes me melt.
He recently commented on how weird it's going to be once our own habits become evident in our child. I laughed at this conclusion of his, and playfully pointed out funny bad-habits of his that our child may inherit. I then asked what bad habits of mine he/she would end up with, and to my surprise he said "None. If it's a girl, I hope she's just like you." And it's things like that, that make him get away with murder with me. Haha
I also kinda felt bad after for all the bad habits I listed of his.
Before I go, I just want to thank the ladies that stop by and leave me such supportive comments in the blogger community. I know a lot of friends and family read these posts, but there's also a range of readers that I don't know personally and have only gotten to know through the world of blogging. To them I say; Thanks! You all make blogging THAT much more FUN!
Have a great weekend everyone!!